Hello!

Yes today is a better day. I’m in a better mood but that’s because I leave for India day after tomorrow and frankly I cannot wait! I need the break and more importantly I need to get away from Dubai and the people living here for a bit. I will have NO internet and NO BlackBerry… so yayyy!

Anyhow that’s not what today’s post is about. I actually don’t know what today’s post is about. I really don’t and I think I’m okay with just rambling on for a while. Anything to take a break from my final essay. Oh yeah I just have one submission left and I have been getting SO distracted. Day before yesterday ‘Valentine’s day’ was coming on TV and I got hooked into Ashton Kutcher’s awesome face… what don’t judge me…. I’m 19 and he is hot!

And this was only in the evening. When I sat to do my work at night, Glee was on TV and if there’s one thing I can’t resist its Darren Criss’s face on a 42 inch screen. You didn’t expect me to just switch off the TV or close my eyes or something! I mean COME ON its Harry freakin’ Potter! And he’s adorable!!!!! Anyone who has seen AVPM and AVPS will agree with me. And if you haven’t seen the musicals then SHAME ON YOU! Go to YouTube now and watch them you useless freaks!

Yesterday it was The Big Bang Theory and Jim Parsons is just too hilarious to miss. After that it was some shady Hindi movie which I didn’t even like except it had Salman Khan and hel-lo he is drool worthy!

Those abs… man I had stars in my eyes.

Ok so I have a thing for celebs… so sue me… every girl does… ok yes maybe I am a little more extreme because my phone and laptop wallpaper is the oh so adorable Chris Colfer and aforementioned Darren Criss.

Speaking of whom, I’ve noticed every time I study with his music on I focus SO much better than usual. It’s like he eggs me on to study better and do my work properly. Awesome yes?

I’ve made like 4 CD’s so far all with Darren Criss songs which I play every day in my music system.

I rambled quite a bit. Enough! Back to how globalization has caused the news to become homogenized and the society these days is hegemonic.

Don’t even ask.

Tata

Nupur

Xx

I feel like the biggest idiot on this planet some days... wait scratch that.. that's what I feel everyday single day!

I do things I shouldn't, fall for people who I know are way beyond my league or as the trend with me is.. fall for a douchebag, say I have no expectations but still harbour a little hope somewhere deep inside of me and then when the time comes and reality sets in I once again end up with a broken hurt and a string of curses and a voice in my head chiding me for having gotten my hopes up even by 0.1 % in the first place.

But in my defense, I'm only human. Everyone makes mistakes. But most people learn from their mistakes. I don't. I repeat them over and over again untill the dam of bearing any amount of crap breaks and the emotions come tumbling out in form of tears, misplaced anger and general snappiness.

Currently that is my emotional part, complete with tears and the theatrics. I will be the first to admit that I am a HUGE drama queen and that I thrive on the drama solely because I create it. But some things even I can't fake. And that is heartbreak.

I can however fake happiness. I do it all the time. Every single day in fact. I take no pride in this fact because I know by saying this I don't come across as the most cheerful or sane person. But trust me, I am cheerful when I want to be. People call me 'happy go lucky'.

The people who really know me, know that I AM happy go lucky and bubbly and vivacious and every other word under the sun related to that, but I also need my space. When I'm hurt, I will never show it. I'll probably never tell you that I have issues. I'll be happy on the outside.

But the trick with me is to look underneath the surface and layers of defensive walls. Most people don't bother, they accepy my personality at face value.

I just realized I have no idea what I went on and on about. Guess I should stop.

Later

Tata
Nupur
xx

Today's post is not about him Really it isn't. I mean there are going to be slight references to him here and there but I swear I'll keep it to a minimum.

Every time I feel like I will be fine, he does something or says something or posts something that sends me head first right back into my funk. I tell you social networking is a pain in the ass. I almost want delete mt Facebook, Twitter and Blogger accounts, turn off my BBM and throw my BlackBerry right into the Arabian Sea from where it can never be found again.

I even considered getting my internet connection cut off just so I could have some peace of mind. But then I realized I wouldn't be able to do any of my assignments which would be another ginaormous pain in the ass.

I can't even sleep properly these days because of social networking. I tried taking a power nap this afternoon for an hour so I would wake up fresh and energetic and would be able to study. People DON'T let me sleep! I had barely fallen asleep when I felt my BlackBerry buzzing and ringing like there was some sort of fire somewhere.

I picked it up only to see like 3 BBM's and 4 Facebook notifications. Turns out it was just one of those crazy group study thingies where everyone decides to talk at the same time and this time they wanted to commandeer my attention. Sad for me since I couldn't even sleep and then I ended up getting snappy.

I mean you CAN'T blame me! I'm an insomniac and people like me... you never mess with them when it comes to sleep. I can barely sleep for more than 2-3 hours on a normal day and the one chance I get to sleep, my friends ruin it. Joy to my world!!

I guess I'm done rambling on for now. Time to hit the books again.
Later

Tata
Nupur
xx